Bringing home our wee Noah

I remember bringing the car seat up to the hospital room. Putting our wee bundle in his car seat. We went down to the car and loaded it up and within 15 minutes we had to pull over. Oh Noah was crying very loudly so mommy needed to sit in the backseat with him. For the next two hours I was in that tiny backseat with him. But he was mine. We drove straight to my parents house where my Mom had dinner waiting for us. We stayed the night and went home the next day where he was able to meet others in our lives.
You think you plan for everything a new baby will need but that is not how it works. One thing I never thought I would need was baby gowns with mittens. Oh he loved to scratch his little face. So early Monday morning I took Noah to Walmart for our first shopping spree. I also introduced him to all my co-workers there.
You ever look at something and it fills your heart and soul with love. He is our whole world. He is the beginning of something very special....

Noahs Birth

I can remember the day Noah was born like it was yesterday. We went to work at Walmart like it was any other day except I was going to start my leave a week early due to trying to get the house ready for our bundle of joy. Before leaving work I filled out the paperwork for the LOA and then said my goodbyes and left for home. Darcy came by to bring me some left over diapers and a heartbeat bear. Right after she left I got the phone call. There were complications and the heart beat had slowed down so they had to do a emergency C-section. I had to call Ward and tell him to get home the baby was coming. All I could keep saying "Baby is coming". Ward came home and he hopped into the shower, then off we drove to Tacoma.
I was so nervous the whole ride over. I remember we stopped at McDonald's because we didn't know when we would have a chance to eat again. When we got there we went straight to Malia's room. I was afraid to hold Noah. I let Ward hold him first. I felt like when are they going to change there mind. They have to change there mind. He is beautiful. I loved how his eyes had the slant to them. How his lips perched up. I counted his toes and fingers when we got him in our own room. Our room was colder then they planned so they took Noah to the nursery to warm him up. We also went into Malia's room about 11pm just so she could watch us with him. He was just so beautiful. I was so happy the next when it was time for us to drive the 2 and half hours to our home. The nurses packed two full diaper bags of formula and diapers to make sure we could just enjoy our new bundle of love. It took us a while but we went straight to my parents house. My Dad was gone but Mom was home and we stayed the night. I had been up for over 24hrs without sleep and I was so tired.
The next night we went to our house where we tried to get a routine down but babies they have there own deal. Noah had colic and was cranky at times, but I was truly blessed to have a wonderful husband who took half the shifts with me to care for Noah each night.

Best Friends

I remember that phone call at Walmart so well but I also remember leaving work and running over to Tonja Linson house..I knocked softly on the door but no one came. I thought to myself it is nap time. She was 5 to 6 months pregnant with Zoe at the time and Madeline was just 18months old ( I think). Well having the friendship we have I just walked into there house, walked into her bedroom where her and Madeline were cuddle up sleeping. I was so excited I didn't wait for her to fully wake up. I just yelled we are getting a baby... its a boy.... so was in a dream state and was like what. Then I kinda gave her some details then left for home. Later she called and asked if I had come over to her house and told her I was having a baby. I was so excited that I couldn't sit still. Telling her was one of my favorite moments we have had together. When you have a friend who treats you like you are sisters, it means the most. Sharing the good times, the scared times and the very bad times. She has been that and so much more to me. She is always there to keep me line, help me be a better parent, and just be me.

Silver Lining

When asked why I say "silver lining" I always think of my son. My husband and I had been married for 5yrs before we ever knew we couldn't have children. I remember pregnancy test after pregnancy test that all had the minus sign. I watch as my friends had these beautiful babies and all I could think is I need a baby. Lucky for me I had one friend who let me be involved with there small family and share in there daughter life.

When we finally found out we couldn't have children we knew adoption was the way. I was adopted as an infant and Ward was adopted by his grandparents. So we knew this was the right choice for us. First we went to Adoption Advocates and found out what we need to do to adopt a child. We decided to do the the foster adopt program.

We needed to get a home study which was going to cost a chunk of change but it was if the spirit came over me and told me this is the time. So I sat down with Ward and let him know that I knew this had to happen now...we couldn't wait not even a week.

So we had a wonderful Home study done. ( to be honest...I learned a lot from that visit) We went to foster parent classes and got certified. Just one thing left to do...first aid and CPR class. But before that could happen we got a phone call...I was at work right by the hardware counter. I heard the page for me so I went to the phone...I remember saying "This is Kassie in cosmetics ... How may I help you?" It was Adoption Advocates and they asked if I was sitting down? I kinda just laughed and said "No, I'm out on the floor right now." Then they went on to ask if we were interested in a private adoption instead of a foster adopt. All I could say was "Yes". They explained the differences. I just didn't care at that moment. They then told me we had 3 months till the birth of baby and oh by the way its a boy do you still want to do this. I barely remember anything else we might have said at that time. All I could think was I have to find Ward. Everyone wanted to know why I had to find him so bad. I was so excited and scared. One of the first people I told was trying to build me up for the let down. In my mind all I could think was "Shut Up".

So Noah will always be our silver lining. In less than 6 months I was holding a beautiful Samoan baby boy. Who we named Noah (after my grandpa) Cole (the name we picked together) Halelani (Ward and his grandfathers middle name) Symonds.

There were times I wait for the phone to ring or the shoe to drop and someone to change there mind. But he is ours. Its weird how they take after you in so many ways. He looks like Ward but is a drama King like me.

We just got his birth mothers graduation announcement in the mail with a lovely picture of her in it. We talk with Noah about how he didn't come out of my belly and we show him Malia's picture and tell him he came out of her belly. We always ask him who love you the most.... his answer is always very long... but then we go on to tell him Malia loved him even more cause she wanted him to be safe, happy, healthy, and loved. We tell him she chose us to be his parents. He is a Silver Lining. He is my miracle.

Kindergarden

Last Friday I went on a field trip with Noah Kindergarden class. We went to the art center trails. Basically it is trail through the woods and there is over a 100 pieces of art all around you. You just need to spot it. We were only gone for an hour and a half but it was great. We saw TuTu forest, the eyelash bench, and rocks floating in the air. Great Fun!